Sometimes we couldn't contain the pain we have within ourselves. I guess that's part of how to be a human. Being selfless is hard. Starting over with a new direction which is so unusual to you might be the reason of your fall but always remember everything happens for a reason. There is always a reason, a good reason, which will make you a better person.
It's been six months already since my last post. And yes! I'm planning to be back and active again. I won't change a bit of myself just because of the rollecoaster-like rife of my life.